Feeling sad now,
I wish it was all untrue,
I put my hand on my head,
There’s darkness,
I see no light shine,
I feel the backlight drop,
I guess its time for me to fall,
I wish I kill myself,

Feeling sinful now,
Wish I didn’t make those words,
Perhaps to never say no,
Maybe I should have lie,
I still don’t think it was right,
It depends on my poem,
I want to be silently dead,

I keep guessing myself,
Acting beside what is right,
Another tormenting night,
I can’t sleep with any peace,
The night tells me it’s safe,
But I know there’s a lot to fear,

The deaf guitar plays a lullaby,
My eyes close and open to the beats,
I try to reach for those pain killers,
Make an X on my arm,
Just to complete my cycle,
There’s a monster within me,
Whispering in my ear,
Do it and don’t care bout anything,
I ache as I see drops flowing,

I’m losing myself,
My nerve makes no sense,
It can’t rationalize what I’m doing,
I just sit at the corner with the lights off,
And just hug myself to sleep,
Feeling nobody around,
I wish there was,
Just waiting to open the door and see me,
But there will never be,

For at the start of the day,
I’ll just ignore and deny anything that shall ever approach me.

Hi,my name is Garrz. some would call me me G where others choose to be formal and just call me by my surname. this blog is a recollection of my life and my undecided other soul. while it may seem to be suicidal in a glance, it is just an explicit form of expression of myself against the typical world. i AM a banana and i do LOVE sad pandas. contact can be made towards ybgarr@gmail.com

My Side Project /Zihan/ Parishna/Ryan

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