i wasn't feeling the need to write today, but a tiny part of me was pleading as it was dying a bit inside.

it's been more than a few days since my trip to boston, and i think i missed the place. even if most of the things there are judged higher in "standards", i think i won't mind excluding myself there considering that the fact where i can just roam around by just my own two feet and just be absorbed by what transpires and be addicted to watch how people just bumped into each other and be inclined to pronounce a greeting.

they have it here as well, minus the fact that people would think your crazy for trying to walk yourself around here and there to which i unfortunately do.

that's the shot i took from my balcony, to which i think is been past due for a few months now. yes, that is the swimming pool to which i try my best to ignore heading in.

things i feel has been moving at a slow pace lately. either i'm ignoring it for going into a cave mode or i'm liking it as i've been non contactable. my new phone has been more active than my old motorola which kinda annoys me as i feel a sense of guilt when ever i see a name pops on the screen and just think "well, i guess i'll ignore it since i don't feel like talking".

i haven't socialize much with my housemates and them neighbors upstairs seeing that i think they're being such a prick about wanting about they want and just ignoring others needs. i think my room is a messed at the moment and i feel time to chop this hair of mine.

i'm desperately seeking a prayer for a miracle to happen and i'm dire need of just wanting to resurrected again. neno has been talking to me about her depression issues, and i feel a bit awkward considering i'd never really have a heart to heart talk towards any of my family members when it comes to relationships. i find myself the most unlikely candidate to even be a therapist in this sort of matters because frankly, even my life is a mess in its own world. maybe i should just get another email and just live with it when i feel like i wanna disappear. that is how the world revolves around, an email rather than a name.

i ponder how is it like to live in a body bag, when somebody is scared to even ponder who's face will they see inside and just be face to face with my head talking about things some people will just think are non-important.

Hi,my name is Garrz. some would call me me G where others choose to be formal and just call me by my surname. this blog is a recollection of my life and my undecided other soul. while it may seem to be suicidal in a glance, it is just an explicit form of expression of myself against the typical world. i AM a banana and i do LOVE sad pandas. contact can be made towards ybgarr@gmail.com

My Side Project /Zihan/ Parishna/Ryan

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