(owl city, fireflies)

i had a weird day. too weird enough to keep me awake and ponder the rest of the day.

my ex came on the other asking how i was. after my reply, we both were at a stand off silence. ironically enough, i was also chatting with nat. we both came into stop chat moment as well.

yesterday, the malaysians had a drink fest at abby's. titled for the night was "minum sampai gila", which i agree is what happens all the time when a party goes down there. cops came due to a noise complaint by the neighbor, all the under age kids went on to hid. that practically was the end of the party.

i was sleeping in the day when i start hearing somebody screaming. i couldn't snap myself to recognize whom the girl was, seeing that none such a person leave here in my crib. she started screaming my name and it woke me up. i came about with a huge headache and a puzzled mind. my chest suddenly felt hurt and the walls look as if they were about to closed in on me.

i try to think who that person was that was screaming my name. it sounded like she was screaming but it was more like a cold hurtful whisper into my ears. after a second to take over my lifeless body, i look around and found out that the day had turn into night.

while i try to seclude myself from all of this, i remind myself of how pitiful i still am and just how much of a dead heartbeat i still have. no matter how people say the opposite, things will always happen that'll never make me change my point of view.

suffer well, have nightmares bout me till then.

Hi,my name is Garrz. some would call me me G where others choose to be formal and just call me by my surname. this blog is a recollection of my life and my undecided other soul. while it may seem to be suicidal in a glance, it is just an explicit form of expression of myself against the typical world. i AM a banana and i do LOVE sad pandas. contact can be made towards ybgarr@gmail.com

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