(something...)

i'm sipping whiskey, think the bottles nearly empty again. i'm trying to claw my fingers around looking for more. seems every sound is telling me its empty.

i throw a bottle away to the wall a few mins ago. think it got crack. think there's pieces of it on the floor. feeling a slight pain some where. think a piece choose to stick itself to my skin. luckily no drops are on the floor. i hope not, its gonna be a bitch to explain it to my housemate later. why is there blood on the carpet? i hate giving out long term explaining. forgive my grammer. my heads not right.

think i have a split personality that comes out when i'm nearly half past dead. it goes up and just pick the perfect tone. everything is keep piling up and now i'm broken again.

my mind is picking words from nowhere again. i'm getting a headache just trying to see them in the dark.

Coz I remember everything that was said
It spins around in my head
Doesn't matter what I try to do
I keep on reminding myself not to forget
Forget about what had happen
Just when I meet somebody new
I came right back in the beginning
Forget forget forget
I'm killing myself to forget
it ain't no joke
it's not something which can be fix
now i see it
it's a pile all over again

my mum sent me a mail as well. i rarely pick a line from what was said. but i think its okay for now. nobody's gonna read this post. rarely do i see people say anything. they don't have anything to say.

"don't bother telling me what's going on over there anymore. i don't think its that important"

important, i'm think and beginning to believe i am not. if she say so i guess. the word stings even my lifeless piece shit heart.

falling asleep now. no, i feel like i wanna passed out. good bye...

Hi,my name is Garrz. some would call me me G where others choose to be formal and just call me by my surname. this blog is a recollection of my life and my undecided other soul. while it may seem to be suicidal in a glance, it is just an explicit form of expression of myself against the typical world. i AM a banana and i do LOVE sad pandas. contact can be made towards ybgarr@gmail.com

My Side Project /Zihan/ Parishna/Ryan

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