date:
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
title: 2012
listening: Flo Rida - Good Feeling
A new year, i guess i should start off with a new post. for the first time, i guess i would want to make myself have the desire to make something out of this year. maybe it's just the sense of obliged responsibility that seems to weigh down on my mind since i guess i am turning into sort of an old dude. but heck, i still feel like i want to be one of the young kids.
Agnes and Clifford laugh at me yesterday while i was walking down the stairs. i look through them and told them i know what was funny. i don't know why, but every time i shaved, i look like a freaking kid that just came out of high school or something. that's one of the things that annoy me about my self grooming. what's even worst is i can't even look at the mirror without noticing that i DO look like a kid.
End of the year was fun. i would like to personally thank the two sisters of the moon, Astrid and Mitch for the hang-outs. yes, i do admit you girls where fun! minus the camera snapping torture and the mud stuck car that i had to pull you girls out of with my armani mud drenched jeans. i will come back and hang again. perhaps maybe sooner than expected. maybe i should have extended my stay.
While all of this happen, i couldn't help but think of the people i'm fond of outside Malaysia. while everybody else was busy pampering themselves to their new year's end, i took a moment to just remind myself about them and how i wish i could become mr. superman and fly across the ocean just to hang with them instead of just sending them a simple e-mail. i hate borders, why does everything have to divided.
In a silent contemplation, i choose to do the following this year (some of which is already under way):
a) Get myself in MMU
b) Lose more weight
c) Get my ass to KK for the obvious reasons
d) Drive around KL like a pro
e) Make the most of what i have around me
i would have wanted to add more to the list but after much pondering most of it are materialistic items or more of a private personal thing to which i'll probably write about later depending on how it goes.
Sometimes i force myself to speak to people or just be open about things, like the time when Razi call me "Depressing Gary" and ended up apologizing about it in KK and finally admitting i was cool. or even the time when i went to that Starbucks only to be called a "Malay Brat" for speaking with an accent to people. let's get one thing straight, i am EMO and i can be a BASTARD at times. but as i grew older and explore the world, i've observe and snip a few things from various interactions that i came across. i still do wish to remained a silent person, but if it brings about a boring atmosphere then it's up to me to force myself to actually do something about it.
P.S.
This post is dedicated to Boogs and Nitsugua. Thanks again for everything, yours truly will repay his debt.
