date:
Monday, April 7, 2008
title: story of the year is back
theme: Paramore, That's What You Get
story of the year is back with a bang. i heard their new single and i have to say, not too shabby. i've been a fan of them ever since they came out. i first heard their song off the need for speed soundtrack. the next day, i pack my wallet and head straight off to BB to search for their CD. since tower records always has this vibe that it ONLY has artists that people tend to normally listen to the local radio, i decided to ditch it and walk to my normal store. where the prices are cheaper and they have more variety. my type of store. it know it's a pirated copy but hey, it beats me using a torrent. at least the fact that i paid for it made me proud that i some how some way contributed to their sale. their second album was a major bummer, hopefully this time around they learn what they did wrong and move on to make music that every fan can expect them to do so.
i'm ditching both versions of myself. i decided to do so. no more too negative and and no more too positive. i'm going in between. which is a balance of both worlds. i figured so since i was so lost in trying to decide what the fuck i should be. the pain is still there, i know for a fact it'll never go away. but then again, nothing ever really does leave me without some sort of present to remember meant to keep my insane mind preoccupied.
u might have known this blog as forsided before. i change it in order to keep other people from knowing bout me. i think its fair time that i left them behind after all the dejection phase they made me go through. mindofareject it was, since i got rejected all the time. the same old haha that i can hear from a mile away makes me knees weak, makes my hate motor rev up and run wild. but i choose to be ignorant and let it be. i'm gonna make it my point to make everybody see that i'm not whom they thought of me to be. i can't be a whinner forever, i have to step up.
i've ran away from home, live all by my lonely self and suffer the fact of going through a wreck phase. through it all, i push people away, made them annoy with me and just gave up on certain things. so to start it off, here's another random.
this is me now,
drowning all my senses away,
burning everything down,
just to make sure i can drown in the river,
i sort of started to wonder,
when i gaze at the sky,
is this how it was meant to be,
when ever i let them win,
when i let them laugh and mock me,
behind closed doors,
even face to face,
i'm better than them aren't i?
i'm not a kid anymore,
even my shadow feels embarrassed to follow me,
i've been wrong before,
what's the difference now,
all i need to do,
is just drown them away,
and let them die in my sorrow,
for those that hurt me,
i'll promise i shall pay you back in due time,
for those that protected my shallow shell,
i'll promise to keep you safe from harm,
to me, nothing beats more,
than a dying heart just starving to breath,
to make something new,
to endure a pain that hurt so much,
i'm rising up,
so be warn,
i'm gonna start a new hell.
