(killswitch engage, fixation on darkness)
i hate

i hate it when i get glares,
for something i know i'm correct,
it's so easy for just about anybody,
to dump anything on somebody else,

i hate it when people ditch something,
for something more materialistic,
i know i've done the same thing once or twice,
thus why i hate myself more than anything,

i hate it when light gets shed to my eyes,
it glares and pains my eyes,
i'm already lacking sleep,
my eyes can't keep on pain stacking the heat,

i hate it when somebody say what they're not,
"i dont change",
"i promised..",
yes we are not perfect,
so why even bother to paint those words on the wall,

i hate you for being who you are,
i hate myself more for letting you be such a person,
i wish i can return to the world and get a peace of mind,
let my head lay down and just say no,

i hate how i was used as a stepping stone,
a ladder for somebody to get better,
what's even more,
i hate it when i myself can't achieve the same thing,

i hate it when i see the tear drops of blood stop,
i wish it would continue,
i wish i had a bigger knife,
i hate it how in life,
everything is always not holding itself,

i hate it when i wanna delete you but i can't,
how i dream about you and wake up to find nothing,
the most annoying thing i can say to end this is,
i hate it how my life is turning out,

maybe someday people will read this,
i know a few that think nonchalant about it,
i don't really care,
its enough if my words pierce their heart enough,
just to stop them from moving in a second split,

hope maybe in due time,
i'll be understood. i guess.

Hi,my name is Garrz. some would call me me G where others choose to be formal and just call me by my surname. this blog is a recollection of my life and my undecided other soul. while it may seem to be suicidal in a glance, it is just an explicit form of expression of myself against the typical world. i AM a banana and i do LOVE sad pandas. contact can be made towards ybgarr@gmail.com

My Side Project /Zihan/ Parishna/Ryan

Software Used:Adobe Photoshop
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