date: Tuesday, December 8, 2009
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time: 4:51 PM

i guess it's bout time i posted something. my first post for the month of dec. i'm feeling a bit nostalgic and emotic these days. i try to waste myself away by keeping my eyes close but don't think its working at the moment.

my passport has expired. chills to my spine? meh, i don't feel anything. i'm more worried about my financial backdrop. the water in the well is gonna be dried soon but then, i've been through these phase before so i'll do my best again to coup with what lays ahead.

i don't know if i should call these useless or annoying, the random thoughts that's been strumming in my mind. it comes in and just sits there for what ever i don't know reason. ironically, its thoughts of my past life and those past relationships with certain people that comes to mind. stuff like "i wonder what she is doing now?" "how is she doing?" which i don't really know what am i supposed to feel.

i put another scar again on that same old spot just well, i just felt like it. i know i'm not supposed to. i know i agree not to. i know i'm gonna get bashed as well. but for what ever reason, i can't really express what was the logic behind it. maybe i guess i wanted to feel that rush again. a slash wasn't enough, so i made another one and it looks like an 'X".

the song of the month is slipknot's snuff. the theme for the day is i have a lot on my shoulders which i don't think i can share and hold.

pierce this words on the wall
i posted them in my darkest world
remade them so they glow

i still hold your words to my chest
i face the life with your beautiful lies
i guess that's the cost i sign myself in

i made up stories to keep you sane
my honesty is merely just a shadow on your knees
it lies and wait and erased when ever you smile

i listen to your angelic words til i weep
those tears that drop are but fakes
i should have known know that you'll quit before i talk

i grasp in the world of what the future holds
we broke it together and leave it at the floor
i still feel i'm apart of your cage

did you left me because you love me
my heart is just too dark to care
my smile gone long ago and rotting in the grave

i'll savor everything for now
all that was real i still hold dear
until i hate you enough to make me fall again

i'm going to rest now in silent
i'm heading down to stop the pity that comes
lets meet up once again when angels come and die.





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Hi,my name is Garrz. some would call me me G where others choose to be formal and just call me by my surname. this blog is a recollection of my life and my undecided other soul. while it may seem to be suicidal in a glance, it is just an explicit form of expression of myself against the typical world. i AM a banana and i do LOVE sad pandas. contact can be made towards ybgarr@gmail.com

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