my hearts in turmoil, i don't know what to say. my chest hurts and my head is clear is enough to know why.

i realized what i had done. has all these scars drove me to this point where i willingly allowed myself to toyed with people's emotions? has this what have become of me?

dear gawd, why must it be this way? i've tried to think over every stone that i can find. something or anything that can salvaged this situation. i just can't find any. is it really too late to save that somebody being played by me?

dear self,

why do you always have to put somebody under a false illusion just to step on them further and make everything more worst? i'm pinning on everything that happen to self. no, it's not fun anymore. it's not okay anymore to give somebody that smile to turn them away. it's not okay to sway them away and just pretend that everything is okay. i'm sick of this shit.

i'm gonna destroy my arm today. i'm gonna hurt myself today so that i'll know not to hurt others. i don't deserved this, not this reward. no, for fuckin sake why.

Hi,my name is Garrz. some would call me me G where others choose to be formal and just call me by my surname. this blog is a recollection of my life and my undecided other soul. while it may seem to be suicidal in a glance, it is just an explicit form of expression of myself against the typical world. i AM a banana and i do LOVE sad pandas. contact can be made towards ybgarr@gmail.com

My Side Project /Zihan/ Parishna/Ryan

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